Tuesday, December 30, 2008

WTH….Weirdest Dream Ever!

I had the weirdest dream today and when you read this you will say she is lying, but this is no lie I woke up and said out loud WTF and texted my cousin. Here’s what happened!

I woke up this morning about 5am to wash my hair so after I washed my hair and put conditioner in I felt sleepy so I lay back down before I had to meet my friend…this was about 6:30am. So while I’m sleep I start this weird crazy dream, but I’m only going to tell the part that had my laughing at myself and texting my cousin with this non-sense, even my grams was laughing at me.
In the dream I go up stairs to use the bathroom and I hear the door open, so once I’m done in the bathroom I go around the corner but don’t see anyone. I then go into the kitchen to get something to drink and look around again where I see mail on the floor by the front door which is slightly open. I go down to pick the mail up and look out the door where I see my grams trying to get things out the car, I ask do she need help and she replies no.
Once she gets in the house she has a dog, now the dog attacks me! I mean this dog jumps up and grab hold of my forearm; it doesn’t leave a mark, does not lock down on to my arm like a pit-bull, but just jumps up will a full set of teeth and latches onto my arm. She struggles to get this stupid dog up the stairs all while claiming it’s a baby and I yelling at her that it’s not a baby. Then this stupid dog attacks me AGAIN! So now I’m pissed, I’m yelling that I’m going to kill this dog if it attacks me again and she will need to keep it up stairs.

Now I’m back down stairs and her she comes with her dog, but wait it now looks like a two year old little boy. So I’m talking to my grams about this dumb dog that now looks like a child and all the while this dog/boy starts to pee on the floor while smiling at me. So now I’m extra pissed and I start yelling about how this dog/boy needs to be potty trained and she keeps telling me that it’s a dog and I’m saying look it’s a boy a regular little boy and it’s peeing on my floor.

Here is where the dream takes a crazy turn; the dog/boy starts to crawl up the stairs so I asked where are you going? This dog/boy tells me it wants water and plums, I say we don’t have any plums and this dayum dog/boy say will I want Doritos.

This is when I woke up and said WTF! The funny thing is theres more to the dream, but this is what alarmed me the most.

Now before you ask what I ate before I went to bed, the answer would be pizza. But remember I said I woke up this morning and washed my hair and then went back to sleep, so I didn’t eat anything. I wonder if it was the conditioner….CRAZY RIGHT?

IDK If I Was Being Judgmental or Just Asking

I just hung up the phone with a friend I have not talked to in a while and I was really disguised that she went on and on about her new boyfriend but said nothing about her daughter. I think I started feeling this way only after she went off for no reason.

Here’s the short version of the convo, we did the happy holiday greeting, asked about the fam, asked about one another’s health and blah blah blah, so as the convo went on she told me about her new boyfriend. When she didn’t mention her child I immediately thought it was literally a new boyfriend were she didn’t want the child around because it was too early and I completely understand. So I asked when and where they met, I mean I was getting pretty excited for her because I knew she had really wanted a relationship that truly makes her happy, but when she said she met him in May/June I did the calculations in my head and then pulled out the fingers to make sure….did she really mean 5 or 6 months ago? Has it been that long since we talked? She did and it had.

That’s when me with my big mouth ask how was the child adjusting to him being around and that’s when she told me she has not let him met her. I said ooooh okay you guys see one another when she is with her dad? She said no we spend the weekends together. Again, me and my mouth ask so where is the baby doing this time, when do you all spend time with one another? And this is when the tone changed in her voice…she gets kind of defensive and begins to tell me she is a good mother and all of this other stuff. So I’m not up for the venting and try to defuse the situation before I get upset and say some things that I don’t really mean. I explained that I wasn’t trying to judge her but was just asking questions and I know all about the people meeting the fam thing I was just asking.

So I told her to continue on about her boyfriend and if she is happy I’m happy for her; from what she is telling me he seems to be a good guy, has a good job, his own home and no children. I want to keep it light and simple and now I’m joking about him having a brother or cousin just like him. We laugh and talk some more but its getting late and I know she has to work in the morning but before hanging up she tells me again she is a good mother, she does everything for her child, and she needs to have a life outside of her daughter. I tell her that my intentions were not to imply that she wasn’t a good mother, but I was merely asking questions because everyone needs to be happy when in a relationship. Told her that I love that she is happy, hope she stay happy, and we need to do better with keeping in touch then hung up.

So like I said I’m disguised by the convo, her attitude, and I might have to give her a call later today…I might change my mind after I get some sleep but right now I want to call.

The baby is not a baby by no means her daughter is 5 years old, goes to before and aftercare because her mom is the main provider, but the weekends come and go so fast that the question was just a question. If she is with the new boyfriend on the weekends that she has the baby when do they spend quality time with one another? I know she is a good mother, I wouldn’t think otherwise, but sometimes I see women get wrapped up in men that they forget about themselves, what they like, or neglect the little ones that will be there forever.

I also know how selfish people without children can be because I’m one of them. I don’t think I should have to wait around for someone with kids to find a babysitter, I don’t think I should have to be with your child every weekend, every other weekend, or whenever they are around. Don’t get me wrong I love kids but I also love to give them back and have them around only when I want them around. Again I know this is selfish so I can understand one side, but I’m not a parent so I don’t know if I was being judgmental or not. I hope I wasn’t!

Monday, December 22, 2008


We are quickly approaching Christmas Day and with 2 days left for shopping here are the perfect stocking stuffers. You can either buy the CD or purchase an iTunes gift card and suggest the following artist:

For those Brandy Fans who have waited for her return, well we no longer have to wait! The comeback and fifth album after such a tragic four years, the disappointing sales of Aphrodisiac and leaving her home of Atlantic records, the faux marriage to her child's father and break up with Quentin Richards, and lastly the car accident, all proved too much for this songstress and made us all realize that Brandy is indeed HUMAN!
"Human", first released single "Right Her (Departed)," speaks of the forgiveness that Brandy seeks from those she has hurt and also asks us to accept her for who she is. While the next single "Long Distance" speaks of a love she longs to be with, but at this very moment she can't. It is a single that is a ballad and needs no explaining, the piano leads us in and takes us out with the signature raspy voice that we have come to love.
Other songs on the CD have a nice up beat soul but it's the ballads that has us wanting more and praying that she never disappear from the scene again.
However, that much needed break, a new home with Epic Records, and the peace of mind she has gained proves just how much she has matured, her acceptance of self, and a stronger more HUMAN Brandy.

Anthony Hamilton- The Point of it All
Anthony Hamilton is past due his respect from those who don’t appreciate good music. If you or your friends are one of those few who has never heard of or never thought of buying a CD from this artist here’s your chance to redeem yourself with his sixth studio release “The Point of It All.” This CD is all about change, a change in life, a chance to realize what you need instead of what you want and once you realize you need love with the help of this gentleman you will forever be a fan. Although it is a little different from what we are use to we are still blessed with that powerful, soulful, country voice that we know only Anthony Hamilton can bring.
The first single “Cool” featuring David Banner is a cute tale of just being together and not worrying about life’s problems. It is nothing more than cute and fun! It is the other tracks on the CD such as “Please Stay,” “Her Heart” and “Praying for you /Superman” that we are reunited with the man we know and love.
To be completely fair I will admit there are some less worthy tracks on the CD, but with Anthony Hamilton you will eventually start to sing along and have the CD in heavy rotation.
You should also check out other CDs from this artist, Comin’ From Where I’m From, Soulife, Ain’t Nobody Worryin, and Southern Comfort.

These two I’m still listening to see how much I actually like them!

Keyshia Cole-A Different Me
The third release from Ms. Cole and it’s a little different from the last CD, since I was not a huge fan when everyone jumped on the bandwagon. “A Different Me”, is a range of ballads and up-beat songs that compliment her voice, but also seems a bit more fun than the last release of "Just Like You."
Since I’ve only heard the entire second CD I’m going to put this in rotation and get to know a different Keyshia Cole.
So far my favs on the CD are:
You Complete Me
Trust featuring Monica
Make Me Over (this one grew on me after about the 5th go round)
This is Us
And it truly is a Different Keyshia Cole, new look, new hair, and dare I say new teeth! they layout of the cd cover alone is HAWT and the hair.....so much better than the red and blonde. the new look is simply FIYAH!

Jamie Foxx- Intuition
Jamie Foxx’s much anticipated follow up to his double platinum Unpredictable; Intuition is the latest of the Jamie Foxx installment. While much different from Unpredictable, you can still enjoy the sweet R&B voice and piano play that Mr. Foxx is known for, but this album offers a lot of dance/club sounds. Guest features are on about 6 of the tracks and include The Dream, Lil Wayne, TI, Floetry’s Marsha Ambrosius, and others.
Over all you will enjoy this album, I haven’t picked a favorite just yet, but I’m still listening!

Other CDs for stocking stuffers:
Musiq Soulchild- On My Radio
Jazmine Sullivan- Fearless
Jennifer Hudson- Jennifer Hudson
ColdPlay- Viva La Vida
Kanye West- 808 & Heartbreak
John Legend-Evolver
Ledisi- Lost & Found

Remember cute socks are cool but great music is timeless!

Happy Holidays!

Monday, December 8, 2008


Just when you think that the world is full of adults you are slapped in the face by reality; you find that grown men and woman are the cause of negativity due to there very own insecurities. Insecurities that you can not help them with, insecurities that others place on them or their lack of knowledge of self worth so they don’t know how to deal. If you allow it, their insecurities can and will be transferred over to you and you become defensive, negative, and out right evil.

Today, I encountered a situation that I know I should not let bother me because I know who I am, what I am doing, and where I will go. I have goals, dreams, and a plan that I will not allow others to interfere with because they have no goals, dreams, or plans of there own. However, today my friend was hurt by the actions of these so called adults, these very adults whom she considered as a friend(s) and despite what was said of me I wanted to speak out for her.

I wanted to let those grown ass men and women know that we are no longer in elementary, middle, or high school; those years have come and gone, that you are the very men and women who have children and that their children learn from their actions. These are the very men and women who claim they are Christians but don’t know just because you attend Sunday service it doesn’t make you a Christian. These are the very men and women that should help guide you, encourage, you, push you when you think you can no longer go on. These are the very men and women who should be able to come to you if they have a problem with you; these are the very men and women who need to seek guidance for themselves.

As I have said in my blog further down HATERS MAKE THE WORLD GO ROUND! So, my friend LET THEM HATE! You continue to hold you head high, show that beautiful smile, hell take a drink and toast to their immaturity all while knowing the greater plan you have for yourself. You will continue to encounter many haters; that’s how you know you are going in the right directions. Remember HATERS ARE LIKE LITTLE DARTS BEING SHOT AT YOU, JUST BRUSH THEM OFF. YOU KNOW YOU ARE IN THE RIGHT PLACE WHEN THEY COME, YOU SHOULD EXPECT THEM!

Monday, December 1, 2008

I am HIV........

Today is World AIDS Day and according to the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention there are more than one million Americans living with HIV/AIDS; one-third of them do not know they are HIV Positive; the numbers are approximately 900,000 people living with HIV/AIDS and approximately 300,000 may not know they are HIV Positive.

Washington, DC has the greatest increase in HIV/AIDS cases with one in every twenty adults being infected; it occurs among people of color, women, drug users who inject, and through heterosexual contact. 81% of all AIDS cases in the district are among African-Americans. There are more than 15,000 people in our capital who live with the AIDS virus while tens of thousands more are infected with HIV.

AIDS remains the leading cause of death among black women between the ages of 25 and 34 and the second leading cause of black men between the ages of 35-44. 5% of the entire population in the district is infected, which is comparable to South Africa.

While I support the cause in Africa, I also support the cause here in America which receives less attention than that of Africa. There is NO cure for this epidemic, but there are ways to prevent this disease with abstinence being the safest and surest. For those who do not practice abstinence always use protection, and if you are a drug users always use you own needles hopefully new. Get tested every 6 months, once a year, or follow the guidelines from your caregivers; if you are infected there are antiviral drugs available and clinical trials for your use. The National Institutes of Health Allergy and Infectious Disease (NIAID) offer trials that you may qualify.

As for me, I know my status do you know yours?

If you do not know your status please find a testing site in your area by clicking on the following site:

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

History in the Making!

This is dedicated to my great great aunt, my great grand parents, my mom, and aunt…who are not here to witness change.

28 August 2008, 45 years to the day of Dr. Martin Luther King Jr’s I Have a Dream speech, Senator Barack Obama delivered his acceptance speech as the Democratic Nominee for Presidency. 4 November 2008, again, Senator Barack Obama made history by being the first African-American President-elect, dropping the title Senator. 20 January 2009 we will be able to call him the 44th AMERICAN PRESIDENT…How about that for change!

I have been told by many that I am a black woman living in America but never an American who happens to be black and a woman. So on this day I am excited to know that an American man who happens to be BLACK has made history. He is everything that the colors of the American flag represent. He is our Red (Hardiness and Valor), White (Innocence and Purity), and Blue (Justice and Perseverance).

I have never, since I registered to vote, stood in line for 3 hours to participate in an election and I exercise my right to vote at every election. While I was standing in line, outside in the rain and cold, I noticed people I have not seen in years, people from middle/high school, former co-workers, and I’m quite sure it was a first for some. Whether it was first for some or the hundredth for others I was still excited. I was excited to see how my family, young and old, started to ask questions and constantly watch CNN, I was excited when my little cousins registered to vote on their 18th birthdays and were able to participate in this history making election, I was proud to see that cable networks that normally air dysfunctional programs were educating our youth our people on the issues, again I was EXCITED!

When it comes to political or religious topics I tend to keep my opinions to myself but this time I could not help it! We have a man who spoke on issues that concerned me, that will make a better life for me and my family, a man that CARES! On this day we have a man who is not afraid to show his love for his family, share his experience or lack of in life or work, or try to hide his mixed heritage. On this day we have a man that truly represents AMERICA.

I know times will be hard for the new President-elect Obama, but he is a man of strong character, strong will, and shows a sense of moral integrity. Am I blinded by this new step in history? Not at all; I know we live in a country that was built on racism; a country that still shows that ugly side, but we also live in country that has proved we could come together for a common good and do what is best for our country.

President-elect Barack Obama based his campaign on the notion of CHANGE and a philosophy of YES WE CAN! On the cold day of 20 January 2009 with or without a ticket to be up close I will be on the Mall to witness this moment in history, this future of change, and this belief of Yes We Can.

“It was a creed written into the founding documents that declared the destiny of a nation: Yes, we can.
It was whispered by slaves and abolitionist as they blazed a trail towards freedom through the darkest of night: Yes, we can.
It was sung by immigrants as they struck out from distant shores and pioneers who pushed west ward against an unforgiving wilderness: Yes, we can.
It was a call of workers who organized, women who reached for the ballot, a president who chose the moon as our new frontier, and a king who took us to a mountain top and pointed the way to the promiseLand: Yes, we can to justice and equality.
Yes, we can to opportunity and prosperity.
Yes, we can heal this nation.
Yes, we can repair this world.
Yes, we can!”

Barack Obama in New Hampshire January 8, 2008

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Breast Cancer Awareness Month

1 October is the beginning of Breast Cancer Awareness Month, and since this is one of the three illnesses that I hold near and dear to my heart I decided to write about it.

I have lost family and friends to cancer, however two people, Tia 6-28-03(Breast) and my Aunt Stephanie 7-26-07(Lung & Breast), affected me the most; both were diagnosed with Breast Cancer, both left behind children and loved ones, both made me more aware of my body.

Tia, 23 when she died, had a lot to look forward to, a life to live, children she will never see grow, graduate from elementary, middle, high school, or college; will never see her children get married and have children of their own. While Stephanie seen her children grow into adults she still had a life to live, time to travel, and more laughs to share.

So for them I write, for them I share, for them I AM AWARE!

All information below are facts and can be found at one of the cites listed below.

Cancer is a term used for diseases in which abnormal cells divide without control and are able to invade other tissues. Cancer cells can spread to other parts of the body through the blood and lymph systems. Cancer is not just one disease but many diseases. There are more than 100 different types of cancer. Most cancers are named for the organ or type of cell in which they start

According to the American Cancer Society in 2007 178,480 women in the United States will be diagnosed with invasive breast cancer, 40,460 women will die from the disease this year.

Breast cancer is a malignant tumor that grows in one or both breast; it is the second leading cause of cancer death in women after lung cancer. The most alarming fact is that black women after the age of 40 have a lower rate of cancer than white women. However, black women are more likely to die from breast cancer at every age.

This type of cancer has been divided into two categories: Non-invasive and Invasive
Non-invasive breast cancer cells are found only in the milk duct of the breast.
Invasive breast cancer penetrates through normal breast tissue or invades surrounding areas.

There are different stages to breast cancer based on size of tumor and if the cancer has spread, which makes them different in each person. The stage grouping is as followed:

Stage 0- early stage of cancer that is confirmed to ducts or the lobules. It has not gone into the tissue in the breast or spread to other organs in the body
Stage I- is an early stage of invasive breast cancer, cancer cells have not spread beyond the breast and the tumor is no more than 2 centimeters.
Stage II- can be one of the following
Tumor in the breast is the breast is no more than 2 centimeters across. Cancer HAS spread to the Lymph nodes under the arm.

Tumor is between 2 & 5 centimeters. Cancer MAY HAVE spread to the lymph nodes under the arm.

Tumor is larger than 5 centimeters. Cancer has NOT spread to the lymph nodes under the arm..
Stage III- may be a large tumor, but cancer has not spread beyond the breast and lymph nodes. However it is an advance cancer.
Stage IIIA is one of the following
Tumor in the breast is smaller than 5 centimeters. Cancer has spread to underarm lymph nodes that are attached to each other or to other structures.
Tumor is more than 5 centimeters across and has spread to the underarm lymph nodes.
Stage IIIB is defined as:
Tumor has grown into chest wall or the skin of the breast.
Cancer has spread to lymph nodes behind the breastbone.
Inflammatory breast cancer is a rare type of Stage IIIB where the breast appears red and swollen because cancer cells block the lymph vessels in the skin of the breast.
Stage IIIC is a tumor of any size and has spread in one of the following ways:
Cancer has spread to the lymph nodes behind the breastbone and under the arm
Cancer has spread to the lymph nodes under or above the collarbone.
Stage IV distant metastatic cancer, the cancer has spread to other parts of the body.
Recurrent Cancer is cancer that has come back after of time of no detection. It may recur in the breast or chest wall as another primary cancer or other part of the body such as bone, liver, or lungs.

BSE( Breast Self-Exam) DO IT!

My phone like many others contain important dates and REMINDERS( 4:15am), this is a reminder that every women should put somewhere. Place it on the bathroom mirror, in your phone, sign up for a monthly reminder at www.checkyourboobies.org or grab a Sistafriend and get to know yourself better.

Remind yourself 6 days after your cycle starts if you don’t know how to perform the exam here are the instructions.

Do it in the shower, while your body is wet and soapy. Use the pads of 3 fingers to check each breast for lumps. Move your fingers in a row pattern. Up and down all the way across one breast and then another.

Areas to check:
1. Outside: armpit to collar bone, and below breast 2. Middle: the breast itself 3. Inside: the nipple area
Things to look for after you shower:
1. Liquid coming from nipples2. Puckering of the skin3. Redness or swelling4. Change in size or shape
We prefer the shower but you can also do a BSE lying down in bed. Do it in a place that is most comfortable and effective for you. The important thing is that you do it.
If you feel any lumps or changes, call your doctor. Remember most lumps are not cancer. It's not about finding cancer, it's about knowing what is normal for your breasts. If something does not feel normal, call your doctor.
* Monthly breast self-exam beginning by age 20.* Clinical breast exam at least every 3 years beginning at age 20, and annually from age 40 on.* Annual screening mammograms beginning at age 40.
Women with a family history of breast cancer or other concerns about their personal risk should consult with a health care provider. Screening tests may need to be done more often and/or started earlier than usual.
As part of a total approach to breast health, women should become familiar with own bodies, play an active role in their health, and develop a close partnership with their health care providers.

I was once told that if you wait until you are no longer afraid you will wait forever, although I’m still afraid to do something’s I am no longer afraid to check talk to my doctor when things are not normal.

National Caner Institute: www.cancer.org

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Senate Bill 1738-The Protect Our Children Act

I am fully aware that people are not suppose to force you to support certain political parties, nor voice their opinion about how someone should vote for bills under discussion in your state based on the rule of ethics; however, this is not about being a Republican or Democrat but about being HUMAN. In July, Joe Biden introduced Senate Bill 1738-The Protect Our Children Act that would increase the funding for prevention, investigation and prosecution of child predators. This bill is up for vote by your state Senators, please help it pass before 26 September 2008.

According to no agenda, the summary of the bill is as followed:
This bill is to establish a Special Counsel for Child Exploitation Prevention and interdiction within the Office of the Deputy Attorney General, to improve that Internet Crimes Against Children Task Force, to increase resources for regional computer forensic lags, and to make other improvements to increase the ability law enforcement agencies to investigate and prosecute predators.(

We have all seen the reports that NBC Dateline has aired, we have all watched the exclusive show on its sister station MSNBC titled "How to Catch A Predator", but yesterday The Oprah Winfrey showed aired Internet Predators: How Bad Is it? This show was aired to make all aware of what is happening in America and how we as HUMANBEINGS can help prevent pedophiles from harming children.

This statement can be found on Oprah's website regarding this bill:
Hundreds of thousands of children are victims of sexual abuse each year, Due to the sheer lack of recourses, law enforcement is unable to follow up on the majority of leads they have. The site also noted the following;
- Authorize over $320 million over the next five years in desperately needed funding for law enforcement to investigate child exploitation. - Mandate that child rescue be a top priority for law enforcement receiving federal funding. - Allocate funds for high-tech computer software that can track down Internet predators.(

Oprah, being one of the most influential women of our time, has made many bold statements, has spent her own money("Oprah's Child Predator Watch List"), and in fact has a bill, appropriately titled, the "Oprah Bill" that was signed into law in 1993 has done her part now lets do ours.
Write or call your Senator; if you are unsure of what to say use the following letter that is posted on her website. If you do not know who your senators are, please go to

Dear Senator:
I know that you believe, as I do, that we must do everything possible to protect children from sexual predators. That is why I am asking for your help.

Last year alone, U.S. law enforcement identified over 300,000 criminals who were trafficking in movies and pictures of young children being raped and tortured. Experts say that one in every of these criminals has local child victims. Child pornography trafficking over the internet has given us a trail of evidence that leads straight to their doorsteps, but the vast majority of these children will never be rescues because investigators are overwhelmed, outnumbered, and underfunded.

As your constituent, I urge you to do everything in your power to pass the PROTECT Our Children Act (S.1738, Biden-Hatch). This bipartisan legislation passed the House 415-2, but it is now the victim of petty partisan politics.

Now that we know, where these children are and how to protect them, there is no excuse for the Senate to fail to take action this session.

(Your name here)

Again, this is not about political preferences but about protecting children.

No Agenda. (2008).Please help support Senate Bill 1738-Protect our children, Retrieved September 16, 2008, from web site:

Author Unknown.(2008). Help Pass The Senate Bill 1738- Protect Our Children Act. Retrieved September 16, 2008, from web site:

Friday, August 22, 2008

Technology, So Addictive!

I can remember a time when there were no cell phones, no computers, no video games, IPods/MP3, and when they came along we still went outside to play. Now I notice how the kids are couch potatoes, the tweens/teens are connected to their cell phone as if it was life support, or always on myspace or facebook; I never really understood how they could be so focused on those things until now.

Just recently, I lost my cell phone and nearly lost my mind, and when I got it back, I sent out a mass message that I was back in business. Now, I was always the type to not answer the phone, leave the phone in another room, or turn it off all together. However, when I lost that handy device I felt as though I lost my entire world to communicate, all the numbers, pictures, e-mails, text, and instant messages where gone. Who really owns an address book anymore? I can use my phone to do everything my computer does; so you know I was lost without it. I really did shed a tear as I watched it go down the storm drain. I couldn't believe what my eyes showed me, I couldn't believe that in less than 2 seconds I would be on the phone calling for a new device and paying a hefty 130.00 for a phone that has insurance (which is another issue).

The IPod is the best thing invented since my grams sweet potato pie and chocolate cake! You no longer have to carry around a million cds in your bag, you can play games, watch videos and TV shows, listen to podcasts, hear audio books, and the best thing YOU CAN TUNE PEOPLE OUT! I put my earbuds in my ear even when I’m not listening to anything, or use it as an excuse when I don’t want to hear what’s going on around me. The only thing I don’t like about the IPod is when I forget to charge the battery I can’t listen, I did like the fact that I could get batteries anywhere and put them in my portable cd player. Oh well times has changed and I had to move forward.

About a month ago, I ordered a new battery for my laptop, which was lost in route to the house…or as I like to say STOLE, because it was supposedly "delivered" to the house. After about a month of no battery, it loses it’s capability to connect wireless to the internet, so now I’m calling the tech support for three different companies trying to figure out is it the router, the modem, or my netcard. Now all of a sudden this horrible blue screen appears and I had a flash back of me paying a good penny for a new laptop after this screen appeared on the old laptop. I start to panic wanted to cry because I can see myself going to the store and buying something new. I call tech support they tell me it’s the hard drive and it will only cost 76.00 and some change, then he comes back and says oh I see your computer is still under warranty…I’m all smiles now. I told the technician to send me my stuff, and I ask about a new battery being shipped at the same time. He grants my request, tells me he will send it out overnight and again I’m all smiles and doing my little dance I do when I get excited about something.

Here is where I get a little nervous...I get 3 different attempt to deliver slips at the door and I panic because they will not try to deliver again until the next business day…BUT THAT IS NOT UNTIL MONDAY. That means a few more days without anything! NO COMPUTER OR PHONE....I JUST COULDN'T DO IT! I call the company and they tell me I can pick up my package before 7pm; I start my happy dance again and I rush to go get my packages. I get home with all 3 packages and the first thing I do is pull out my phone, insert my sim card, and sent my text message. Next I pulled out the computer and screw driver and started working. I hit the power button seen that lovely Windows screen appear and watched as all my drivers and programs were reinstalled on my system. I still have to get a new modem, which will be delivered in the near future and I'm hoping for today, because I'm not use to this connecting with wires business.

So after the feenin', scratching, with drawl the only thing I think I’m disappointed about was losing my I-Tunes library over 4,000 songs, a few vids and movies gone but the most important thing, I HAVE ALL OF MY GADGETS BACK! I guess I’m one of those kids that I never fully understood until I lost everything, I’m a TECHNOLOGY/GADGET JUNKIE….SO SAD!

Thursday, July 31, 2008


What is a Hater? What is your definition of a hater? As for me a HATER is someone who tries to put you down, never wants to congratulate you on your accomplishments, or just someone who tries to out shine you on any given moment...Basically it is someone who is always giving off NEGATIVE vibes. These are the people who never, I do mean NEVER have anything nice to say.

I have a few in my life just like everyone else, but what I want to know is how do one become a HATER?! Do one wake up in the morning and just say damn I'm going to be a hater, does it run through the blood line, or does it come from the people you are around? I mean dayum...why hate on the next person if they are doing well? Now if you are telling the truth and not trying to throw shade on purpose than I guess you have a valid argument and will not be considered a hater. Make sure you are doing it to be truthful and not hating because she can afford a pair of Christian Louboutin or he can drive around in the hottest car and don't have to worry about the price of gas. If it means that much to you should try to borrow those shoes and drive or at least be on the passenger side of that car and not hate on the person.

How many haters must we encounter? You have the haters at work, at home, and on the streets...you don't even know these folks, yet they have so much to say about you. I can write a book on these people all day every day, especially the people I work with. You even have celebs hating on one another leaking pictures, talking stuff about how the next artist fell off when they are one hit away themselves, or they are just talking trash about how they are with jump offs and who has been with who....Funny, since it seems that they are all together at one time or another anyway. Can we just say "GURL YOU LOOK GOOD!" "MAN YOU GOT SWAGGER LIKE NO OTHER!" or something just as simple as a "HAVE A GOOD DAY." NOOOOOO we have to say "GURL YOU SEE WHAT SHE WEARING? THAT IS NOT CUTE" "DID YOU KNOW DUDE LIVE IN A ROACH INFESTED APARTMENT." or " SUCH AND SUCH DON'T KNOW HIS/HER WAY THAT PROGRAM LIKE I DO, SO I DON'T KNOW WHY THE PICKED THEM. THEY BETTER NOT ASK FOR HELP" LOL, people really say this stuff. What I don't understand is how does any of their business concern you? These are the people I give names based on their very own ATTITUDE and I try my best to avoid them as much as possible.


Just be grateful for the things that you have, the person you are, or the person you can become, you don't have to live to impress the next man or woman you can do that all by just being YOU!

Here are tell tell signs that you are a HATER:
I know I said signs...but hell this sums it up pretty well, lol. There is only one!

You are on your way to becoming a HATER:
1. When you find yourself agreeing with everything a HATER has to say.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Should Looks Count?

When it comes to the opposite sex should looks play apart? I have had this conversation a million times and I wonder if this is the reason why so many people find themselves with out a mate. I know I’m guilty of this at time, when I look at the outside such as shoes, teeth, finger nails, and dress; now the teeth and nails are apart of daily hygiene which is a must so I keep those on my list of priorities. On most days you will find me in jeans, sneakers, and my hair up in a ponytail especially Monday-Friday but on the weekends you know how I can do…dress up the jeans maybe put on a skirt depending on where I’m going put on a dress…yes I do own them, LOL, but how many people have said the same about me upon first look. How many people have thought I was not a prize winner because I didn’t meet their expectations in the looks department?

Anyway, I have run into some pretty unattractive people and wouldn’t give them a chance even when everything else has been on point…what do I go for? The guys who have everything I’m looking for and those are the ones who THINK they can run game on me. I’m going to start talking to the “underdog,” the ones who have BRAINS! I wonder how many people I have lost as a potential friend because I just couldn't get past what they looked like. Hopefully, I will meet the ones who have something in their heads, on their minds, and the looks weeeeeeeeeeeelllllllllll you know they fade but FRIENDSHIP, LOVE, RESPECT, and HONOR don’t come from looks but from the inside. Again they can end up as a friend, possible mate, or eventually your husband/wife.Until then, we must not let LOOKS PLAY A PART but intuition, faith/fate , or whatever else you want to call it to find what you are looking for.

Friday, July 18, 2008

JUST FINE how about YOU?

A while back I wrote a blog on another site about 3 different guys, The “Just a Friend”, “The Nice Guy” and the “Why You Bother Guy”…now the why do you bother guy should have been deleted from your memory bank but for some reason he still is on your list of people you deal with and after this brief im conversation I just recently had I wonder why he is still on my list. LOL, poor little ole’ me. This ish made me so mad I just had to get it off my chest. Here is how the conversations went, just to let you know you must pick a team and it shall always be mine, okay here we go!!!!!I wrote a tag line that said “Why do people lie and wonder why I say ‘eff em?” so this gentleman writes “Wow, stop dating all those dudes,” no hello, no how are you, just trying to jump all up in my mix about who I’m with. So my response was “it’s not about or to a dude but if you must know just ask.” I’m not going to go into the whole distasteful conversation but it all came down to him asking if I wanted a man in my life. I just brushed his question off and told him I’m happy with my current situation. He rebuttals this and tells me he don’t think I’m happy…WTF? He can not be serious can he; so I had to break it down for him to let him know that he never held the key to my happiness although he was apart of my life at a certain time and at that time he add to my happiness but wasn’t the end of it. Here it is five or six years later AFTER the break up, which puts us at almost 9 years of knowing one another and he is still trying to figure things out. BTW: this man is 5 years older than me and you would think I was back in high school….SHAMEFUL!

I wanted to sing “JUST FINE” to him so bad that I didn’t know what to do. I wanted to let him know that I like what I see when I look in the mirror, how I feel when I’m around the people who have my best interest at heart, and lastly I like the man who I currently have in my life because he gives me what I deserve, need, and want! That I am no longer the little girl he once knew, because everyone grows in different areas and over the years I have done just that.

Although I have yet to delete him out of my memory bank or off my im’s he finally got the picture and had to apologize for his comments and realize he made his choices in life and unfortunately for him they didn’t include me and he must move on. Now there may come a time when our paths can cross again but he must know I can’t go backwards. Life is the biggest lesson you can learn from, and I learned that there are men out here who will treat you like a princess after you kissed a million frogs just to find him. Now why would I give that up to go back to being insecure about me…wondering who, what, when, and where you are or what you are doing? I know people change but really can you let go all those thoughts when they were never really there for you?